Unemployment has been good and bad for me. I've had time to use, but I've wasted a lot of it. I have told a lot of people that I've slipped easily back into summer mode, which is the truth. I've spent a lot of time doing things that aren't very productive except for the fact of relaxation.
It's been hard trying to find work, trying to keep working on a novel, and concentrating on what is important in life overall. All of the sudden my future feels empty, and I've followed complacency instead of determination in trying to fix that.
My novel is the only thing that has really benefited from my unemployment. Well, that and my room. It's gotten cleaner, and I've made my bed more often. But my novel has blossomed with time.
It is funny how God gives us time, something that He is totally unaffected by, to help regulate us. Time reveals so much in us because it is the only thing we are constantly spending and don't know how much we have left. It gives us a measurement with which to measure our lives by. Its a gift that we both appreciate, waste, use, overuse, and take for granted every day.
I enjoy being busier, at least busier than this, and having things to do. Having a lot of free time has revealed that even stronger and clearer than before.
How are you using your time? It is so important for us to use our time for someone other than ourselves. Its the one of the most precious things to give away, in my opinion, because that moment is one-of-a-kind, something you can never buy back. When you give someone your time, its the ultimate act of showing them you care. Your time is your life. When you give live for someone, it means just as much, if not more, than when you die for them. Giving your time is giving your life.
Something that has been running through my mind recently is this: life is not about you. Our world is so obsessed with telling us its about us, our life is OURS. If our life is ours, than so many other people have access to it. One of the problems with today's society is that we think our time is ours to own, and while that is true to an extent, time is something we are constantly giving away, meaning that life is not really ours.
Who/what are you giving your time to?
