I'm getting really tired of people's apathy, especially the apathy of those around me. Yes, I know it takes guts to CARE about something, but can you please just...try? It's really starting to bug me. At the very least, please care about what God thinks of you.
I'm also getting sort of worried that I'm just coming off too strong, that I'm demanding people have too high of a standard, that I'm being just like my parents which means judgmental and hypocritical and not very understanding. People just don't often understand my point of view, and I often don't remember that there are different points of view. So, as a result, I start feeling like giving up. But that is just making ME apathetic, isn't it?
Maybe thats why I'm getting this stressed out feeling. I've invested "too" much into my friends' lives, and they are just don't care that I have decided to devote this aspect of myself to them. (But then again, that's been a theme, hasn't it? So why the stress now?) It's getting harder to trust them. I know that love should be forgiving and trusting, but how far are you supposed to be their friend if you don't trust them? And is it wrong to feel more comfortable with other people, and to want to spend time with them instead?
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