I'm not sure if I'm potentially an unbridled enthusiast when it comes to this new house. It's not even technically mine. But I get so excited at all of the possibilities, not only for designs, furniture, rooms, etc., but also for memories. I keep thinking of all the things that we're going to be able to do.
I am not sure if being this excited is normal. I want to work on it every moment I have open. And if I have a spare moment in my mind, I'm thinking about it. I don't want to say obsessing, because its not that bad (I don't think), but I should probably say its not far off. Is that a bad thing? I get some condescending looks when I start to get "carried away," but I'm not sure if its just because I don't mind putting in the work. The work is the exciting part for me. Oddly enough.
I would be lying if I didn't admit there were things I worried about. But I keep telling myself its not that big of a deal, that I can't have everything the way I have envisioned it in my mind, that I'm not even going to be living there for awhile yet. That calms me down. Yet I still find myself thinking about the house as if I were going to move into it shortly. It's kinda bad.
Most people laugh at my silliness and excitement. Maybe most of my friends just don't understand how wonderful it is to have this endless expanse of possibility lying before them and to be energized by it. I don't shy away from challenges like this. I jump at the chance to do something with it.
What do you think about those word stickers they sell at Khol's on the wall? ;)
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